I almost died and I could have chose to die but I kept living. I took a job then I did a sin which had severe consequences. I say severe because of the punishment and because I changed the US for the worst without realizing it. I prayed and prayed in the COH but kept losing and lost everything. Seems like I’ve now lost even more then I originally had. It was my season and then it changed to a season of judgement. Now I’m told I can’t change it back. I tried desperately to hold on to what I had left..